health; pizza; my friends; being an american; america; cydney, who has taught me fashion and compassion; food security; macarons; all four of my incredibly smart, quirky, insightful and hilarious grandparents; my education; black denim; jason, who has filled my life with love; lena dunham; running water; hot running water; my celine bag; those who serve in the armed forces; having been to paris, rome, madrid, and lisbon this semester; planned parenthood; the existence of neon pink; having grown up in larchmont; my travel pillow; my house; cheeseburgers; the internet; man repeller; my parents, who have selflessly provided me with everything i could possibly want or need
How attractive it can be to think you can save somebody else by loving them.
Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.